Living Inside Your Eyes

He sat on a beautiful rose garden and looked back at his life. Moni, a girl in the same class occupied his heart which he wasn’t aware of until he was out of school. The feeling of unconcealed love seemed to be such an ecstatic feeling, that he dreamt about her and lived a life with her in his imaginations. He delayed declaring his love for her since he believed she would never fall for another. During his third year of Engineering School, he finally proposed to her through an e-mail. Declaring his whole lovable heart in the form of words, however at this point in time, she was already taken. He continued to ask her to leave her lover but she remained faithful to him. He understood that his love had spoiled everyone’s happiness; of his, hers and his parents’. His life became void. “You at some point in time might worry that you missed me because you never understood my love. When you come across that stage just step out of your house and smelled the fragrance of a sweet rose and understand that you were the same fragrance of my life. You went away from me and I let you go because I believed that I had more than enough of you within myself. How much farther you may go, you will still connect with me and you still bring loveliness into my life.” An email like this to Moni ended his love story. He moved away to a different place and started to live his life without any interest. He hated his existence, life and everything. He was disappointed that life was not fair at all especially for those who love it. Then something changed. “Falling in love is like learning to ride a bicycle. Mostly you will fall down and hurt yourself but if you are afraid to try once again then you have to walk lonely in the whole life” A Nepali girl named Shaloni, entered into his life to explain this and blissfully converted all his regrets into blithe. She was already in love with her childhood sweet heart, Paritosh. He believed love happen only once and with only one that was with my Moni. Perhaps, somewhere in Shaloni’s innocence and childishness he fell in love with her. Having become a close friend to her, he proposed and she accepted. His life’s beautiful melody started to play out, however, he soon learned that Shaloni was afflicted with Leukaemia. What the hell was human life, only sadness and madness? Nevertheless, she had decided to give him a never ending smile, which he understood when he opened her gift. A gift that was only to be opened upon her demise. When he opened the gift, he was surprised to see what she had left behind, ………..she wanted him to remain happy and that’s the reason why……………………. she is just living inside his eyes.